Seriously, Lily is OCD. There must be something I can do to help her. Last night, we put corn in a bowl on her highchair tray. SHE THREW A FIT. We were attempting her to at least try a few veggies (the only veggie she eats is sweet potatoes!) Oh, no, it was a catastrophe. She would not even sit down until we removed the corn. She stood up in her highchair and screamed. She could not even have the corn on her tray--it was too upsetting....What's a mom to do?
Another example, if she has any speck of anything on her, she immediately freaks out. If there is a small, unidentifiable piece of lint or dust on her hand or in her shoe, she's upset and we have to get it off or out of her shoe before anything else happens. It is so ingrained that I am not sure how to help her to compromise.
This week, it seems worse. She is teething and if things do not go her way, there are massive tears. Not to mention, Matt and I decided to take the pacifier away. So, there is another drama.........But, no pacifiers is working (other than I am going crazy with her tears and no plug.) She also was using the pacifier as a chew object for her teeth--now she doesn't have that to chew on, I think she's more irritable.
Took her to Kim's today to see how she would do. She cried off and on the entire time she was there. She did not want to be at a sitter's house. I really need her to have a sitter's so that I can count on a day once a week to get my appointments done.......Not sure what I am going to do because Lily was not very good....Now I am not sure if I should send her....She just gets so upset. Weird, though, I can drop her off at the nursery at church and she does fine......
Totally frustrated with motherhood right now. Not sure if I was cut out for staying at home full-time. And when I do try to make plans for Lily once a week so that I can gain some sanity, it didn't go well. I was able to get out a couple nights this week, but still feel as though I am going coo-coo.
Weekend is going to seem a little weird. We always go to my parent's cottage for the holiday, but since they are building, there is no where to go for the whole weekend. We have made plans, so it should be a fun weekend....just different. I need to get out of my motherhood funk so that I can enjoy a three day weekend with Matt!
Tonight is dinner and engagement party, so at least I am getting out!
