Lily loves to help. She loves to be doing whatever we are doing. If we are pumpkin cookies, she is helping. If we are fixing one of her toy kitchen, she is helping. If we are cleaning the garage, she is helping. Two of the pictures listed are proof that she LOVES to help!
The other pic is of her on the jungle gym just around the corner. She got brave and wanted to do the balance bars...Matt helped her, but she did a fantastic job.
It was another busy week. I like the busyness, but sometimes the monotony of the busyness makes me depressed. Every day is different, but really it is all the same. We went to Chicago last weekend and I think that helped. Getting away from the monotony helps break it up. I am concerned about November and December though. It is going to be a long couple of months.
The memories of bedrest come and go. Today I was standing by my magazine basket in the family room (where I spent every waking moment of bedrest, except when I was at the doctor which was a close runner up...haha). Anyway, I was standing there thinking I needed to clean that area up, but I think there are some remnants of bedrest. So, I just ignored it....And then I turned the corner and thought, I really should move the tote of Daisy's things that are sitting in my dining room....But I didn't. It is still sitting there. I guess I am somewhat paralyzed. Numb. I think numb is a perfect way to describe it. I am living a new normal, but am going through the motions somewhat numbly/emotionless. However, there are upcoming dates that will probably will make me emotional, so I guess numb is an okay place to be for now.
And, I am finding joy in some things again. Joy in Lily.
And there are some frivolous things that I can do to help me try to feel...like shopping, going to lunch with Lily or a friend, taking a walk in the warm fall air while kicking the rustling leaves, eating pumpkin cookies or caramel apples, seeing new life.
