I am totally numb. Literally and figuratively.
On Monday, Henry got transferred by a NICU team from DeKalb Hospital to Dupont Hospital to the NICU. Candace got released and was able to visit him several times this week. His bloodcounts--glucose, platelets, and white blood cells were not at the "normal" levels. So, they wanted to monitor him and make sure that he was improving. Thankfully, he improved and is probably going to go home in the next 24 hours. I got to visit him on a couple of occasions. Being in a NICU again was definitely traumatic. Ironically, last time we met with our counselor he encouraged me to go sometime. I told him I would probably only go back to the NICU if I knew someone there....I guess the "joke" was on me.
Was it hard to be back in the NICU again? YES. Sounds, smells (same soap smell), fears, doctors, feeding storage and regimens, talk of levels, etc. It was hard. However, when you love someone, you have to be strong and willing to walk with them through some of life. One of the sweetest moments all week was when Briton and Candace opened up to me about how this experience has helped them get a glimpse of what Matt and I have been through. Thankfully, they will not experience the loss because their baby Henry is coming home SOON. And, I am sorry they had to get a small understanding of the 20 days of NICU life that we experienced.
As I got home from the NICU on Tuesday, I realized that someone had broken into our house during the day. They took most electronics. IPODS, printers, computers, flat screen TVs.....However, with Henry in the NICU, the "stuff" that was taken did not affect me much. I am grateful that 1) I was not home 2) Lily and I are fine 3) No cash or jewelry was taken or anything else with sentimental value 4) I ordered a new printer for our business of selling recipe cards and it is AMAZING 5) My wonderful husband had everything backed up automatically every night so recovery on business files was simple.
To ice the cake, my grandma is in the hospital. Actually, she is being transferred to Lutheran in an ambulance this afternoon. I am devastated. I just hope she can pull through. Matt visited her today before her transfer and he said she was in good spirits. I love her and know that even at 81 years of age she is a strong woman. I am just praying that she can play a few more card games with me (as well as other activities!)
I truly think I am in shock. I am devastated by it all and yet thankfully God is providing a peace. My face and body are numb.
I am supposed to go to a show tonight for our recipe cards. The host of the house said I could just drop off a few things so I think that's what I am going to do.
Off to print MORE recipe cards. We got SO many orders this week. Now that our printer is up and running again, I must get them out in the mail!
